what is a word worth

When I think of subpar I think of my second job. At first, I tended to be the one who was good at there job, specifically selling stuff. My co-worker and close friend after the fact commented on how fat I was on the register to the point where I was left alone on many occasions during Friday and Saturday nights. To reference, I worked at a movie theater. So with that came busy weekend nights. I'd say at the point I was actually good at my job. So good that within a year and a new general manager I was now a manager myself. This is where I would lose a lot of this quality work. Long night every weekend would lead me to care less and less about this place, eventually to the point of letting my peer do pretty much whatever without care. I was the “cool” manager some would say, but honestly, I just have no motivation. So, therefore, I was subpar I guess. 

   

I think a lot of people think of subpar with a lot of things. Mostly, that of food, movies, or even life sometimes. Most things are just kinda there at some point. I generally think most people would with that statement. A lot of times life is just subpar. That is what makes them much more than subpar moments so much better. Those moments are what keep many floating above the water.

Subpar applies to many relationships I have had in my life, especially platonic. Many of the past friendships I have has specifically before adulthood were pretty subpar. Many people today I think would use the word toxic. Much of what I have issues with as I grow further and further into my adult life was caused by many of the relationships. Luckily graduating and moving to college has led to many healthier relationships that I truly cherish 

The dictionary definition of subpar is below average. The concept of average, however, is different for everyone which makes me questions the meaning itself. My average is very different compared to others. This means that subpar is different for everyone. This also means that people should not judge what there people think is not subpar. Overall the term is a very intreating concept that everyone has intercepted differently.

My junior year was very very subpar. Probably one of the worst times of my life so far. It led to a lot of bad grades, bad fights, and even almost dropping out of school. Although I did stick it through and eventually got in a much better place and now here we are today.